“You can resume normal activities.”

I wasn’t looking forward to Monday, February 17, 2025. I knew what was coming.

For the next 48 hours, I was to be flat on my back. The only exceptions—restroom and meals.

I knew this drill because in December of 2023, I had surgery on my left eye to address Fuchs Dystrophy and cataracts.

To put it simply, Fuchs Dystrophy is when a person’s cornea begins to misbehave. My eye doctor had been tracking this behavior for a few years. After an exam, the comment was always the same—“you’re not ready yet.”

When you’re ready, the surgeon makes arrangements to secure a healthy cornea from a donation bank, and then the surgeon works his magic.

This morning, the plan was the same, but the focus would be my right eye.

I had completed the pre-surgery prep. A laser is used to zap a small entry point into my right eye. This is followed by a regimen of eye drops to prep the eye for the surgery.

The Commander Supreme and I had an uneventful drive to the surgery center. We parked and walked into the large waiting room.

The room was packed. I’m certain this facility is a cash cow.

Since, I had already signed my life away, the check-in process wasn’t very cumbersome. On a monitor, we could see my name, and track its positioning with the other patients. It wasn’t too long before a nurse came into the lobby, and called my name.

She gave a few instructions to the Commander, and then I was on my way.

The nurse and I chatted to the staging area. She asked many questions to ensure that I had followed the required protocols.

I had one last shot at bladder relief before stretching out on the gurney. A preheated blanket greeted my feet, and the magic touch of the nurse properly positioned my old sack of bones. My right eye was marked to alleviate whacking out the wrong part of my body.

My vitals were cooperating, and soon the knockout doctor appeared. Again more questions, and a short while later I was out.

When I awoke, I slowly noticed I had a dull throbbing pain in my left eye. It seemed like forever before anyone stopped again to check on me. I let them know about the eye pain, and they were perplexed.

I continued to wait. The longer I waited the more anxious I became. I didn’t remember waiting this long the last time.

Another check on me, I asked how much longer? I guess I was like a kid on a long road trip with his family—are we there yet?

Soon, the knockout doctor returned. Something was removed from the left side of my face, and the pain around my left eye immediately disappeared. He asked me if I was ready for some more sleepy juice, and I said yes.

I couldn’t feel anything, but I do recall the doctor working on my right eye.

I don’t remember the ride, but the gurney was wheeled back to the spot where I started. And it wasn’t long before my left eye could see the Commander Supreme.

At some point, we learned that the surgery went well. The patch over my eye could be removed for the drops, and we had a chart for recording the dispensing of the drops.

My post-surgery appointment on Tuesday morning would reveal more.

I was alert now, alert enough to know I needed a pit stop. I was transitioned to a wheelchair and wheeled to the restroom.

Back in the wheel chair, a nice nurse pushed me out to the departure circle. The Commander was waiting for us.

With the seat reclined, I entered the car, connected the seatbelt, and we headed for home.

I’m a very lucky person. My back rarely causes me any stress, but my back doesn’t like being flat for 48 hours.

The last time I had this surgery, my back was the challenge, and unfortunately, this time, my back again chose to bother me.

No matter how pillows were used in support of my legs and feet, my back tightened and cramped. I had permission to take Ibuprofen and Extra Strength Tylenol. They dulled the pain, but the aching never totally disappeared.

That first night, I’m certain Alexa was just as happy as I when morning arrived. I kept making requests, and Alexa kept playing the music.

A bit after eight, we started the drive to the doctor’s office. It is a different passenger experience being reclined in a moving car.

With my eye still covered with its patch, we made our way into the waiting area. I was a bit uneasy.

When I was called back, the first nurse to assess me learned quickly that I had barely any vision in my right eye. I don’t remember this from the previous surgery, but this time the absence of vision was alarming to me.

My eye picked up light, but that was all. It was like there was a film covering my eye.

She didn’t seemed too concern.

Next the doctor came in. He took a look through the fancy machine, and he liked what he saw. The four sutures were in place, and the inserted bubble in my eye was still helping to hold the needed pressure.

The doctor showed the Commander how to monitor the bubble. If everything worked properly, the bubble gradually disappears.

We didn’t pepper him with too many questions, and before leaving we set up the appointment to have the sutures removed in a week.

During the remainder of Tuesday, somehow, my back and I tolerated each other. Waiting for dawn the second night seemed longer. Once again, Alexa honored my music requests.

On Wednesday, I continued to go for flat time. I didn’t want anything to go wrong with the surgery. Late on Wednesday afternoon, I took a shower. There is nothing like a shower for a weary soul.

By late Saturday afternoon, Betsy had good news—the bubble was gone.

On Thursday, February 27, I drove myself to the appointment. When the nurse started checking my right eye vision, she was pleased. This morning, I could read letters to her from large to very small.

When the doctor came in, he was pleased with what he saw too. Some drops were applied to numb the right eye, and now he was ready to remove the four sutures.

Once the sutures were out, I was given some different instructions for the eyedrops, and then I heard the best news from the doctor: “Your post-operative progress is ahead of schedule, you can resume normal activities.”

I was elated.

I thanked him and the nurse, and I made an appointment to come back in a month. I hope my progress continues.

This whole process amazes me.

According to the National Library of Medicine, the first corneal transplant dates back to 1905. An Austrian, Dr. Eduard Zim, used his ophthalmologist skills to perform that surgery in what is now known as the Czech Republic.

Since that surgery, countless doctors have been involved in improving and refining the process. I can’t begin to imagine figuring out the need for a tissue bank, the special tools needed to suture inside an eye, developing the eye drops, and how to use a laser to form an opening for the surgery to take place.

Why can we figure out this complicated surgical procedure, but we can’t figure out how to bring a lasting peace to every corner of the world? What is wrong with us? What have we to fear from a lasting peace?

In this process, I’m thankful for the care provided to me by the Commander Supreme, the meals from neighbors and friends, and heartfelt prayers.

And in both surgeries, I’m appreciative of the skills from the doctors, nurses, and support staffs.

But more importantly, I’m deeply appreciative of the family who made the decision to donated the cornea to the tissue bank.

How can I be so lucky and others are not?

I wonder how the good Lord might answer that question?

Eye drops and eye shield. (Photo Bill Pike)

Author’s post surgery note: Today, March 27, I had my one month appointment with the eye surgeon. Everything looks good, and he has released me. Again, I’m so thankful.

Pat Conroy learning from losing

March 4, 2016 was a sad day for me. On that date, I learned that my favorite author, Pat Conroy, had died.

Mr. Conroy was seventy years old. In January of 2016, he announced that he was being treated for pancreatic cancer. To me, all cancer is evil. But, pancreatic seems to be extremely cruel.

At times, the world might have been extremely cruel to Mr. Conroy. Yet, he always seemed to persevere. His luck ran out with the destructive pancreatic.

Here are some instructions for my children, grandchildren, and beyond, my Pat Conroy books are not to ever leave the family. Sorry to dump that on you, but Mr. Conroy’s books touched my soul. They might just touch yours too.

When I see old book tour itineraries, when Mr. Conroy was close to Richmond, I still curse myself for not making the trip.

Only one book is missing from my collection and that is The Boo. I’ll read it before I croak.

Out of all if his books, I keep coming back to My Losing Season. That book is about his senior year of playing college basketball at The Citadel. My Losing Season is my favorite book to pickup for the purpose of re-reading a page or two or three. Sometimes, I can’t put the book back down.

With this book, Mr. Conroy’s gifts as a writer made me laugh, cry, and ponder.

I laughed at the room checks on road trips as the coaches checked for females in the rooms of players.

I cried when I read about Mr. Conroy’s teammates, Al Kroboth and Joe Eubanks, as they served America during the Vietnam War.

And I pondered, the difficult decisions that Mr. Conroy and his classmates had to make while serving on the Honor Court at The Citadel.

Woven into the book are the ups and downs of the season, the psychology of dealing with Mr. Conroy’s difficult father, and a demanding coach.

We learn about his teammates in the real time of the season, but we also learn about their post Citadel lives as Mr. Conroy finds and interviews each one of them.

I love the self-talk Mr. Conroy has with himself after a rare but exhilarating win:

“I needed time to memorize what happiness felt like because I had experienced so little of it. Looking up into the night sky, I saw the Milky Way. I instantly thought of God and how I was afraid I was losing my faith in him and the immensity of the fear and cowardice I felt when I thought of facing the world without Him.

I was receiving the Eucharist every day of my life and fighting this war with faithlessness with every cell of my body, but I could feel the withdrawal taking place without my consent.

On the causeway to Lady’s Island I prayed out loud, ‘O Lord, please hear me. I thank you for this year. I thank you from my heart. I needed to be a decent basketball player in college, Lord. I don’t know why. But, I needed it. We both know I’m no good, but we sure are fooling some people. Aren’t we, Lord?’(Pages 275-276)

I love the honesty of that passage.

I love it because I have been there.

I have felt and experienced that same tidal undertow of my faithlessness to God being pulled away too.

And I’ll carry that faithlessness further, it is still alive in me today when the discouraging headlines in the news overwhelm me. My fearful soul cries out—God where are you?

Like many scriptures found in the Bible, Mr. Conroy references being afraid with fear at the prospect of attempting to live his life without God’s presence. I know that fear too. It is with me everyday.

But there is another honest lesson about acknowledging life’s disappointments in the epilogue for My Losing Season.

Mr. Conroy writes: “There is no downside to winning. It feels forever fabulous. But there is no teacher more discriminating or transforming than loss. The great secret of athletics is that you can learn more from losing than winning.”

He continues: “The word “loser” follows you, bird-dogs you, sniffs you out of whatever fields you hide in because you have to face things clearly and you cannot turn away from what is true. My team won eight games and lost seven-teen—losers by any measure. Then we went out and led our lives, and our losing season inspired every one of us to strive for complete and successful lives.” (Pages 394-395)

Pat Conroy’s final game as a player for The Citadel was in the 1967 Southern Conference Tournament. They lost to the University of Richmond in overtime 100 to 98.


The next morning in the Charleston, South Carolina newspaper, The News and Courier, Citadel coach Mel Thompson said this about Mr. Conroy’s play: “Pat Conroy gave another great performance. That kid gets more mileage out of his talent than any player I have ever coached.” (Pages 340-341)

Those unexpected words of praise from Mel Thompson were used by Pat Conroy to inspire and shape the rest of his life.

I don’t think my old heart can ever let go of Pat Conroy’s books.

Maybe this is why my soul will always hang on to him and his words: “It was the year I learned to accept loss as part of natural law. My team taught me there could be courage and dignity and humanity in loss. They taught me how to pull myself up, to hold my head high, and to soldier on.” (Page 400 Epilogue My Losing Season)

That is a powerful lesson.

No matter how bleak, frustrating, and uncertain this world can be, you, me, we, us must soldier on by pulling ourselves up with courage, dignity, and humanity.

God bless and rest your soul Pat Conroy.

(Photo Bill Pike)